For someone like myself change is a massive deal. I like my life in order and even if I don’t know it, I have a routine and an almost ‘schedule’ I make in my head every morning.
Ranting down the phone at my boyfriend has become the usual, planning the day down to every minute to make sure that, even if my day is really boring, I have some sense of order. I remember one Christmas my sisters were planning on getting me a clip board so that I could carry that around with me as I make my plans.
Someone changing or cancelling plans on me throws my anxiety through the roof and I feel myself entering a maze and I cant find the end or any logical way through. I feel my eyes flickering as my brain overthinks and decides on how to react. Often this ends in anger, but never intentionally.
Change happens every day.
Change is a part of life.
Change has made me the person who I am today.
Never be afraid to change things in your life because sometimes you’ll realise that change is the only way you can move forward and be happy. Whether that’s changing the way you do your make-up, changing your morning routine, or changing the group of friends you hang out with.
Change is good, and things will get easier.